Mother's Day is over and gone. It has become a very emotional day to me and my husband of almost fifteen years. After years of failed attempts at trying to get pregnant, surgeries, and Fertility Specialists, we made the concious choice to stop. After a few years of enduring immense pain, came the hysterectomy. I can now say with certainty, my husband and I did not know the whirlwind we were about to endure. Nor were we prepared mentally, emotionally, physically, or spiritually for what would follow.
Most Doctors inform their patients about the physical effects of a hysterectomy, but hardly ever do they discuss the mental and emotional effects. The latter is what I, among many other women, experienced. I can be raw and honest and tell you that I went bat crazy. I lost my ever loving mind! My once carefree, outgoing personality had become an insecure, vulnerable recluse. I began to suspect my husband of cheating; to the extent of hiding in bushes late at night, wearing all black in the freezing temperatures of winter. I bought spy cameras, the little tiny ones with motion sensors and infrared technology and voice activated recorders were placed strategically all around our house. I did things that were normally uncharacteristic, and would make your mouth fly open aghast! I was mean, aggressive, callous, untrusting, and disrespectful. I hated his voice, and the very sound of his breath made me cringe. Most of all, I hated myself for who and what I'd become, but no matter what I tried, I could not "fix" myself. I'd also not slept more than two hours a night, if even that.
One day, while on vacation, I visited a natural health pharmacy and noticed and purchased a book immediately. The title was From Hormone Hell to Hormone Well by Dr. CW Randolph(If you are going through menopause, or are having a hysterectomy, I HIGHLY recommend this book). After reading the book entirely, I sent an email to Dr. Randolph's contact information and received a call early the following morning. They felt it was an emergency for me to come in as soon as possible and had an availability that Thursday. Hallelujah!
The Doctors at Dr. Randolph's Ageless and Wellness Clinic did tons of blood work and put me on Bioidentical Hormone Replacement Therapy! I'm here to tell you, within thirty minutes of putting the progesterone cream on my arm, I was sleepy. Once they got my hormones tweaked, I returned to my somewhat old and fun self. I say somewhat because, I've never really quite felt the same as I was before the surgery. And, let's face it, the trauma my husband and I endured changed us, as well as our marriage. WE will never be those people again. I profess, I see we both have become stronger together, and our marriage now grows stronger every day. Once on the verge of divorce, we both agreed we wanted to save our marriage. We invited God into our marriage and, it has been a long, hard road, worth every second.
As God loves His church, I know with certainty that my husband loves me with a fervor only He can provide. We continue to take things day by day, moment by moment. We relish the simple things, living fully in each moment. I am blessed beyond measure for the man God chose to be my husband. My life is full.
To visit Dr. C.W. Randolph, Jr.'s book, or to visit his Ageless and Wellness Clinic visit
http://agelessandwellness.com/
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